Warning upfront, this post is not light and opinionated….
And also, I rant a lot and waffle a lot. You may need a beverage or simply click off this page if it is going to be too much for you.

Seriously, if you are sticking around; get refreshments. 

I am currently writing this at 11:00pm on 28 January 2017 because something very disturbing has happened in the world. Today, Donald Trump (I refuse to use the P word where his name is mentioned) made an executive order to ban all migrants and refugees from several Muslim countries. The countries are Iran, Iraq, Libya, Somalia, Sudan, Syria and Yemen. All refugees from Syria have been denied entry until further notice. 
I am currently at a crossroads, I have a conflict of interests. I am actually planning to travel to the US in a few months time for a project and right now, I am not sure if I want to.
The US is a place I have wanted to travel to since I was little. I saw it as this amazing vast country, though new in comparison to the UK, has a rich, deep history. What’s more, I applaud the national pride it citizens have in their country and the way that politics is something that the majority of it’s citizens is deeply involved in; something I think we here in the UK could learn from. 
I have been to the US once, New York City for three days on a university trip. To say I loved it was an understatement. I didn’t want to leave. I loved the feeling of the big city, I fell in love with the museums, the food and the lifestyle of a New Yorker. My time there was short, but it was enough for me to know I wanted to go back. 
Since watching Gilmore Girls I have wanted to visit a small Connecticut town and wander around Yale or Harvard. From binge watching Gossip Girl and Sex and the City I have wanted to go back to NYC and experience the city like a resident. I have always wanted to visit San Francisco and the West Coast, hell I have even wanted to do middle America to see what it was like. Scandal made me want to dress like Oliva Pope all day at work but it also got me interested in American politics and the way it works.
But right now I don’t want to. Right now, I do not want to be seen as showing any support to Trump. 
When Putin imposed anti- gay laws, much as I didn’t want to- I have and continue to refuse to travel to the country until they are lifted. This is incredibly sad to me as ever since I studied their history I have always wanted to travel to Russia and see the country. I however cannot and refuse to fund any money into an anti- gay government and, as a country where their government is heavily involved with every part of the citizen’s lives, I am sad to think that in my life time I will never see Petersburg or Moscow. 
I feel because I object so strongly to what Trump is doing right now I do not want to be seen to support him. I do not want to give his government anymore of  my hard earn money to fund his anti- Muslim agenda. What he is doing is ethically wrong, unlawful and elitist. He is punishing entire countries for the actions of a small fraction. I have been to the Middle East recently and I can vouch that they are some of the friendliest non- judgemental people I have ever met. 
The problem I have right now is a sway in my morals. I do not want to be seen support Trump, but at the same time should I punish people for his actions? After all, my money will be going to them as US citizens and whilst a tiny proportion will be paid in tax, the majority of it will be going to support themselves. I have also paid too much money right now to back out of the trip, but I feel I am betraying my morals and my beliefs by planning to go.
I suppose the real thing has nothing to do with money or with really wanting to go on this trip. The main thing is, I feel helpless. As a UK citizen, I have no power to stop what is happening right now. There is nothing I can do to help anyone affected by this outrageous act. For someone who just does things and get things sorted in times of crisis this is a hard pill to swallow. There is simply nothing I can do.
I am annoyed that our Prime Minister has said nothing right now to call out Trump on this (currently the next day- she has since now said something). I know that she is in a difficult position thanks to Brexit (another rant for another day) but this act stops many British citizen who happened to be born from one of these countries travelling to the US. Mo Farah, our Olympian hero currently cannot travel to the US as he was born in Somalia. A Scottish student has had to pay thousands of pounds extra to get home to Glasgow simply because she holds an Iranian passport and her flight has a stop in NYC. Iranian Film Director  Asghar Farhadi can no longer attend the Oscar where he has been nominated due to this ban. 
The Muslim extremist group (again I will not mention their name as I do not want to bring attention to them as a collective- but you know who I am talking about) attacks the West due to being against our beliefs. In turn, Trump is attacking entire countries and segregating them just because he does not like a tiny rebel fraction. Anyone else familiar with what happened when a leader of a powerful country attack a singular religious group just because he didn’t like them? I always thought of Trump as a stupid, racist, sexist, organs baboon but right now I am scared. He is holding the office of one of the most powerful countries in the world and if we are not careful or do not speak out and stand up for those in need, I hate to think what may happen next. 
There point of this rant is to start a health conversation that we as citizens of the world should all be having right now. It’s not about what’s happening in just our own countries anymore, we are all facing problems. We all need to stand up for each other; no longer hide our heads in the sand. It is not enough now to not know what is going on right now and ignore it. I will still be going to the US in a few months time, but I will dam make sure that I will do what ever I can to support the people affected by this order, even if it is simply typing on a keyboard and making people aware of the issue. At least I am doing something about it, rather than nothing. 
P.S this post is not to start arguments. I am simply expressing my thoughts and concerns. Share your thoughts too, but please do not leave hate.